Archive for March, 2009

Eden came into the world with full force early this morning.
Warning- this has all the details, so if you don’t want them, don’t look

Last night I was having a few contractions, kind of sporadically and not really time-able. I tried to go to bed, but I kept waking up with what I thought was an upset stomach. I kept trying to go to the bathroom and couldn’t…

About four I woke up and noticed that the “tummy pain” had moved to my back and was quite strong. I got on contractionmaster.com to time what I now realized were contractions. The first three were eight minutes apart. The fourth was less than three minutes after the third… and strong. It was 4:43 am.I knew this was it. I woke up Nick. I had a few more really strong contractions and about 5:00 decided to call my midwife, my parents and Alex (my wonderful friend and doula.) My midwife, Amy said to see how it went for an hour and give her a call back. I couldn’t get a hold of my mom or Alex. After a bit, I did get ahold of everyone. A little after 5:30, I realized that there was no waiting an hour to call Amy back… this little girl was coming – and fast. I think I had Nick call, I don’t really remember. Amy said she’d be there in about an hour. I worried Eden would get there before Amy!

My folks showed up about 6:00 to get Keagan. I was trying sooo hard not to scare him. I really needed to vocalize at this point, so as not to scare him I tried to sing “How Great is Our God.” He loves that song. It lasted for half a contraction and then I lost it and moaned. Right then, Grandma and Grandpa showed up. Keagan cried. Nick ran him out the door… the contraction ended and I chased them all so I could hug Keagan and tell him Mama was okay. Apparently, he was fine, but my poor dad cried.

About this time, I started shaking and threw up. I knew this meant I had to be close and worried again that no one would be there to help. I had Nick call Amy and thankfully, she was close. She got to the house between 6:20 and 6:30 I would guess… When she settled in, Amy checked me and I was at six centimeters. I was so shocked, I just knew I had to be closer than that. I had to use the bathroom, so I went to the toilet. I couldn’t pee, but the bath looked appealing. I had Nick start it for me and he went and told Amy I was getting in. As the water was still running, Alex showed up. Not too long after that, my water broke.

Then I couldn’t help it anymore. My body was pushing. But I went poo in the tub a little bit with the pushing, so I thought it was just really intense need to use the bathroom… I got out of the tub as fast as I could to try to use the bathroom… and soon realized that it was not that, it was baby! Her head was part way out of me and I was sitting on the toilet! So there I pushed. I stood up after her head was out and gave another push, and Amy guided her into my arms. There she was! My beautiful little girl! It was 7:14 am, 17 minutes after my water broke and about 45 min from when I was dilated to six.

It took a moment to sink in and then I saw my wonderful husband’s face. He was so happy… he had tears in his eyes. It hit me then. She was really here. We enjoyed a few minutes as a family before I birthed the placenta, then we made our way to the bedroom and just enjoyed one another.

Eden took to the breast right away, having three successful nursings before 10:30 am. She’s a hungry girl!

Home birth was so empowering… beautiful… real…and full of God’s love. It was the perfect way to overcome all the pain associated with Keagan’s birth. I can’t explain how much better natural childbirth was for me than hospital birth….

Keagan loves his “BABY!!” and is trying very hard to be soft with her. Though, being 23 months old that isn’t the easiest of tasks for him. He really wants to cuddle her nonstop.

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Slow-Moving Grump

Keagan is such a wonderful little guy. So much personality, so full of love.

I feel badly, because these days, it is VERY hard for me to keep up with him. He’s been more of a Papa’s boy lately, probably because I am a slow-moving grump who cringes when he wants to play. I am not proud of it, but it is true. I had a terrible morning today. For whatever reason, I’ve been super nauseated (I keep hoping it means labor will come soon, but so far that is not the case) and when I woke up today I felt huge waves of nausea with every movement. It was awful. So awful that my wonderful husband stayed home and let me sleep some, hoping it would make it better or that labor would come. Sleep helped some and hubby went to work two hours late.

Then I was alone with my sweet son. Who is very much so a toddler. Cute, funny, defiant, curious. The whole package. I still felt awful (I am nine months pregnant, I guess I should feel awful, but I was feeling especially awful and he was especially playful. He wanted to run around and play and I secretly hoped he would just sit still and color, play with legos, even watch TV (which I hate!) but none of that would do.

He kept begging to go to the park and eventually, I obliged. And I am glad I did. The fresh air felt good. He had a blast playing with another little boy his age. He got to pet a puppy. Then something amazing happened. When all the children and puppies were gone, his slow-moving grump of a mama actually played with him! I chased him. I let him chase me. I even pulled my huge and tired body onto the big toy and went down the slide with him. I carried him home when he asked to go home for “munch,” and I didn’t complain when he wanted to cuddle to sleep for his nap.

He was so happy as he went to sleep. He kept patting me and saying “ssshhh” like he was putting me down for a nap and leaning in and kissing me. Occasionally, he’d sigh and say “ahhh, Mama.”

I am so glad I gave him some happy mama time after my morning of being grumpy. Shoot, my week of being grumpy. I know this has to be hard on him. He just wants his mama to play with him. And he does not understand the strain that being very, very pregnant puts on a body. He just knows his mama used to play a lot more than she does now. Yes, I am tired from being so active at the park and I’m having contractions still, hours later from it (No, I don’t think it’s labor…) but it was more than worth it.

In these last days/weeks before Eden’s arrival I am going to have to remember that his little world is being shaken up and no matter how hard it is on me, he needs his mama present. And I need to remember how much I truly love playing with him. He’s so sweet, cute and loving. How could I not love that?

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We are in our new home, we finally have internet and we are trying to get all settled.

Eden seems to feel that she would like to act like she’s coming early, so I have to take it easy until Wed, when I will be far along enough to birth at home. Of course that makes getting my home ready for the birth harder. But if she has to be born in a room with boxes in the corner who cares. She’ll be at home where she belongs. 🙂 Hopefully, she gives me a few days (or weeks!) after Wed. We’ll see. She knows the perfect time for her arrival better than I.

Keagan seems to like our new home. He LOVES the park down the street. It’s so close that I can take him down there multiple times a day no problem and let him run out his toddler crazies. It’s wonderful. The neighborhood is great, everyone is friendly. I wish I wasn’t held up right now, I would do more with him out in the world… or even in our house. We don’t normally do much TV, but I start contracting whenever I pick him up, stand up, bend…just about anything over these past few days, so he’s been watching a lot of Veggie Tales. Of course this pleases him to no end, but I’d much rather have him outside playing in puddles or something. I just have to keep telling myself it’s a short time in his life and we’ll go back to our normal soon. Well as normal as life can be when it will change so drastically 😉

I am so looking forward to Eden’s arrival. I can’t wait to see her sweet face for the first time. And I can’t wait to see how Keagan responds to his new sister. And to see Nick fall in love with his daughter.

Babies are great. 🙂

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